I’ve always been a little jealous of those people who plan out their life and their life seems to go exactly how they plan. Of course, I’m sure it looks much prettier from the outside looking in than it actually is, but seriously… as a person who nothing in life has gone according to plan I often wonder what it would be like to not always be wondering what is going to go wrong or how this will actually turn out.
Today, we were supposed to close on the sale of our house and the purchase of another house closer to school and church. Our house was packed and in a trailer. We were ready. We were excited. Yesterday, we got a phone call that something came up with our buyer’s finances and they got denied their mortgage. Did I mention that my house is packed up and ready to go?! Needless to say, I cried.
Yesterday, a friend of my husband sent him this video. God’s timing never ceases to amaze me. I didn’t realize what he was watching, just that he kept stopping it and asking me if I wanted to watch it with him. I was busy and distracted and didn’t take the time to sit down and watch it with him. I should have. He sent it to me this morning and I listened to it on my drive home from school. I cried… again. I’ve known this story for years. I’ve always loved this song and the story behind it because, to be quite honest, I can’t imagine losing everything, including my kids, and still being able to claim it is well with my soul. This song leaves me in awe. This song gives me perspective. This song reminds me how much I have to be thankful for.
In the scheme of things the sale of my house and the purchase of another is nothing. Of course, as this new mama with a 12 year old and an almost 1 year old for our first Christmas all together I was so excited to be settled and celebrating in our new home, but in the end where we are doesn’t matter. I don’t know why things fell through, or what God is doing in all of this, but I’m confident he is doing something… Because that whole nothing-going-according-to-plan thing…. well, God has definitely used that to teach me dependance on him over the years. And when you're dependent on God you get to see him move in big ways. Ways that I’m sure I would never give him credit for if things went the way I planned. I just need to cry first sometimes.
In order to make the best of a crappy situation, we dug out the Christmas decorations yesterday. Because let’s face it, Christmas lights make everything better. We’re looking forward to celebrating the birth of our Savior this holiday season wherever God has us, but…, if you could pray that we sell our house again quickly, I’d much appreciate that.
Hope this video can be an encouragement to you this morning!